Rant

Sigh. I was just sitting down here to post about how things seemed to be pointing me in the direction of my hometown. There are 3 jobs listed that I am qualified for. My old house is vacant and I now have a contact number for the lawyer representing the bank that foreclosed on it. There has been a small amount of interest in my home (unfortunately - very small.) Then youngest daughter came in to tell me what oldest daughter has been up to - again.

I am so sick of this child and her trashiness that I can't even stand to look at her right now. I KNOW everything she says is a lie. The more she pretends she is doing everything she is supposed to, the more I know that she is hiding what she is doing that she is NOT supposed to.

I feel cheated. I was a good kid, a great teenager, and a very responsible adult. How did I end up with such a lying little sleaze as a daughter. Yes, I know I can contribute the sleaziness in part to her dad - but even before his criminal actions she was an accomplished liar and she had started down the road of trashiness several years before his actions. I really don't have any left to give.

For further fun, my felon ex-husband has filed to have child support recalculated based on his prison income. I knew it was coming, but now I get to spend more money on attorney fees and take more time off work to deal with this. And it won't change the outcome at all. I will not see a cent for 5 years. So I am asking my attorney to see if he is open to terminating his parental rights. No more child support for him - no more him for us to have to deal with again. Truly - I have never hated anyone as I do him. He destroyed many lives - yet he can only think about his. Bastard.